Did you know that I never cared though I knew you always talked behind my back? To be honest I did it too, many times in fact.. I mean, all you were always thinking about was getting married. I wanted to go to space and see Jupiter, that amazing velvet-orange gaseous giant.. or at least travel around the world. I wanted to become a great artist, and be with someone who loves me because of who I am. I used to think my dreams were bigger and better.

Did you know, one of the reasons I decided never have a child was you and the way you used to learn to your ten year old daughter how to be "responsible"; by making her baby-sit her sister you brought "for her" so she won't be alone anymore? who knows I"ll make a better mother, I thought.

Did you know, that I never got used to the coldness of your look? Even though it was a fact of everyday just like living in the same house with you.


I know, you have your simple life you always wanted and I came a good dreamer.

I know, it's hard to take care of two children and do all that housework where no one ever appreciates what you do.

I know you fear that your daughters become like me. If you could erase "the black sheep" of their memories, you wouldn't hesitate even within those they count to fall sleep.

Picture: my friend talking with her boyfriend's uncle about music, spring 2004.

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Students of Amir Kabir university (Tehran) when Ahmadinejad was speaking for them cried "death to dictator" and "Liar get out of the university". Ahmadinejad's bodyguards beat students.

And yes, that is Ahmadinejad's picture on fire.

See more pictures here.